No more excuses

So met my personal trainer and well I am in the healthy weight range ( haha barely ) My bmi is 24.9 and my body fat is 27%.  And thats just starting.

I get to tell you all at the end of next month my new stats in terms of inches and more.  My personal trainer and I are focusing on building muscle- and He told me why some women freak out that they are getting bulky is while thier muscle is getting stronger they are not eating properly and doing enough cardio so instead of toning they are bulking.

So when I see him twice a week we work on muscle tearing and building and on my own I am doing cardio and eating right.

I am going to start running outside because its best.

Intake- est, 1650 ( I need to start figuring out the exacts with the whole veggies and salads so I am over estimating for now)

Outtake: half hour core. 40 minutes elliptical, 15 minutes stair stepper, leg day workout.

O and this is what I am training for in August, The warrior dash!

http://www.warriordash.com/photovideo.php

So instead of making a New Tumblr, I figured I would keep this one going since it is a journey.

And I finally know for sure I am doing it, I believe in myself more then ever.  Last summer I got down to 152 woot woot! Which was amazing! I also got down for the wrong reasons- I thought If I weighted less Id feel better about myself ( which I did) but I also believed it would make my boyfriend at the time pay attention to me.

See we had been dating for at the time 3 years plus more and I was to be frank basically being completely ignored.  This in turn made me feel like that even if I lose weight I am still not wanted so I got sad, which I never knew I could ever feel that low.  I cycled, eating alot, not really eating, being mad about eating a cracker then binge eating all into a cycle that also I stopped working out and stayed in my room ditching class when I could to escape and read.

One day I woke up and decided this was not the life I wanted to live.  So I applied to study abroad, and I got in to Costa Rica.  My friend even had the guts to tell me ( its always hard to tell a friend) that I was miserable and maybe it was time to let go of my 4 year relationship.

So I did, I did the scarest thing ever broke up with the guy and left the country for 5 months, and it changed my life.

I experienced more in those 5 months then I could in 5 years, I challenged myself Itook risks and I became a stronger happier person.

Fast forward to two weeks ago, I had the talk with my ex with why we can never be again.  He changed ( smokes now not into that) and all this other things, and Im on a path to seeing the world and more.  While he said he made a mistake and knows he didnt see what he had, being gone showed me thier can be so much more then the high school relationship I had.

I worked out being abroad, but the last month I was there due to a bacterial infection in my leg I couldnt work out, I started the last week before I left having mild anxity attacks of leaving the best place Id ever been and being so happy and being afraid to go back to that sad girl and I was scared to face my ex because I knew I didnt want to be with him, but I was scared I would fall back into the same me I was, unhappy and not going anywhere.

But I came back and I changed, and I kept moving forward.

So heres the me now-

I currently weight as of this morning 165, leaving in December I weight 167, and when I left costa Rica I weight 169.  Ive lost 4 pounds so far.  I have also looked more into my dream of teaching english abroad, I am eating clean and healthy and for the first time in my life I dont crave crappy foods.  

The reason I say its a journey is this- I started my weight loss journey after my dad had a heart attack when I was 18, thats when I started to work out. 19 is when I learned the importance of eating healthy and now at 20 I have learned to overcome emotional eating and everything with that.

So yes, now I feel unstoppable.  I am going to reach my goal weight, I am going to become fit AND I am going to be strong mentally and physically.

Your welcome to watch me on this journey.

P.S. start my personal trainer tommorrow.  If your unhappy with your life change it,  and while its scary I am glad I did.

glitterandpolish asked: I saw that you posted you went on the hcg diet. Did you take the drops or the pills, and how long did you stick to the diet for? I am on day 2 right now, and its the gorging phase so I havent lost anything yet. I start the 500 cal diet tomorrow, and thats what i am nervous about.

hi! i was on the drops and it was the homopathic kind from gnc, I stuck to the diet for 28 days, it was to get ready for a formal, i really liked the results, i wasnt as hungry as I thought I would be, just make sure to drink alot of water, and try really hard not to cheat, i did and thats why I only lost 10 pounds, but hopefully this time i can lose 20

hello all, ive sucked at posting, which i feel is partly why i have gained back 9 pounds

:( so im gonna do the hcg diet again, i did it back in march and lost 10 pounds so hopefully doing it stricker will enable me to lose more this time

starting weight -161 ekkk

at least this will give me some self control again

its always hard to change environments and eating habits when you get so acustomed to them.  Moving back to college after losing 15 pounds this summer was espeically hard when you cannot be in control of cooking your own food.

Dont get me wrong I love the fact we have a chef at the sorority house, but he generally doesnt make the healthiest of foods.

Then after getting my dress altered for the wedding, they told me not to lose anymore weight or the dress wont fit.

So ive been eating pretty bad lately, but im realizing and self checking and that is all changing today.

Im never going back to the unhealthy person I was.

sorry ive sucked at posting these past couple of days but I just moved back into the sorority house and we have recruitment practice so lifes a little hecktic

BUT

ive had like everyone come up to me telling me I look so great and skinny, and i feel like wow thanks, its weird to me because i feel like im on this track where its like well i could have lost more and im going to lose more but thanks!

im starting to run up here, and its great, hopefully its something thats a new habit for me :)

have a great nigt everyone!

I weight in at 153.6 today!! YAY so here is a list of my goals

150 or 149 by August 23 ( my 20th birthday)

145-147 by Septemeber 15 ( the wedding im in)

138 by October 31 ( I want to wear a sexy hallowen costume for once)

132 by Thanksgiving

125 by christmas

Do you guys think these goals are achivable?? Also want to run a full 5k without stopping by homecoming in septemeber!